Ma Lyfe

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2009-07-01T23:21:00.000-07:00

it's been 1 week plus now m.azhari not by ma side.. can't met hym .. can't smsing .. and talk on the phone .. miss hym soo much .. just wanna update ya .. last that i wrote on 25th june 09[thurs] .. emm .. last thurs i didn't go aniwhere .. just sit ad home .. do blog,play comp .. on fri also i didn't go aniwhere .. just sit ad home .. sat i go watch prabu with sriulan .. at jln damai .. after watch then straight go back .. rahmat send mie back home .. on sunday i go watch k.kepang again with sriulan .. go watch treo ad eunos .. like usual rahmat fetch mie .. then we met the rest ad b.merah .. from there we all go together .. quite fun .. but still i miss you .. you're not by ma side .. again after watch the show, i straight go back .. keano send mie bck home .. the rest still stay there .. eating,chit-chat .. tat's all ..
love n miss you m.azhari ..

Dear Muhammad Azhari

2009-06-26T00:39:00.000-07:00

ALL the Love we've made can never be erased .. And i promise that you wiLL never be repLaced .. Love is when you don't wanna go to sLeep cos reaLity is better than a dream .. Love is a sLow poison .. ALL i need is you ..! And i miss you ..! Do you feeL the same ..? When i count ma bLessings, i aLways count you too .. I reaLLy need you .. Trust mie .. I won't repeat ma mistakes again .. Pain is what i feeL .. Without you, everything was different .. Without you, i won't be the same .. Hate to see you go .. I Love you & i won't stop loving you .. Thinking off you drives mie crazy bie .. Tears then fLow .. I've gone beyond to see the truth .. You're ma Heart, You're ma SouL, You're ma Everything .. Can i turn back the time & start aLL over again with you ..?

25th June 09(Thurs)

2009-06-25T08:45:00.000-07:00

Yesterday i didn't go aniwhere .. Just chiLL at home .. ActuaLLy wanted to go J.West accompany AdeQ .. But tak jadi go .. Just sit at home, pLay comp & do bLog .. At night we went to shop with Grandpa, AdeQ, Qish & Ira .. When AdeQ went home i just rest at bed, thinking of hym .. I hoLd ma tears .. I try to find things to do & to distract myseLf & kiLL the time .. I watch t.v .. Its a funny show .. 'Cinta GiLa' .. But after i watch, i went back to bed again try to sLeep .. But i can't .. I keep thinking of hym .. I miss hys voice, i miss hys joke, i miss hys laughter, i miss hys hug, i miss hys nonsense, i miss everything .. But the most that i miss is hys Hug .. He usuaLLy hug & kiss mie when i wanted to sLeep .. But now .. I can onLy dream he is beside mie .. I cry like heLL everynight ..
* Bie ..! Cepat aLik ..! Aku rindu kau ..! And Bie, nk tau sumtin ..? Tadi when i ask Ira to take sumtin for mie i terpnggiL dea 'Bie' .. And suddenLy i feeL like crying .. MayB im too carried away .. M.azhari, i LOVE & MISS ya sooo much ..! mmuackss ..

M.Azhari

2009-06-24T21:45:00.000-07:00

Bie ..!!!!! Aku rindu kau ..! Cepat aLik ..! Im waiting .. Haizz .. * Counting Days *

Birthdae GaL

2009-06-23T11:32:00.000-07:00

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2009-06-23T11:13:00.001-07:00

Yesterday Night i didn't sLeep weLL .. Kept thinking bout hym .. Tears fLow non-stop .. I miss hys hug ..! I can't stop thinking of hym .. Today 23rd June i wakes up at 11+am .. After i wakeup tears start to fLow again .. Thinking what's happening there .. What is he doing .. Have he eaten .. Haiz .. Worried & miss hym like heLL ..!!! Today i went out to Town with ma sibLings .. (Adeq,Yayan & Boy Faz) .. We watch movie @ CineLeisure .. * Drag Me To HeLL * After that we went to Hereen .. WaLk2 .. Take pictures .. Then we eat @ McD Lucky PLaza .. Eat .. Chit-Chat .. Take picture again .. I pretend to look Happy & CheerfuLL .. But deep inside im not .. I controL ma tears .. Haiz ..
* Bie ..! Aku rindu kau ..! I'LL B waiting for you ..!

And to ma beLoved Yayan ..
' Happy 16th Birthday'
Sorry tk dpt bLikn present ..
Love ya sooo much ..!

Sad

2009-06-22T09:01:00.000-07:00

Im sad & LoneLy .. I miss M.Azhari .. He's not by ma side .. I miss hys kiss, hug, laughter, & everything .. I need hym badLy .. How i wish this thing wouLdn't happen .. Im waiting in pain .. I pray you're safe there .. Do eat & T.Care of your heaLth aite .. Im sorry if i didn't visit you .. I scared i can't controL ma tears .. You know mie right ..? Im a Cry Baby ..! Im sorry dear .. You don't worry bout mie aite .. I know how to takecare of myseLf .. I wiLL wait for you .. After you've been reLease im sure everything gonna be fynd .. lOVE & miss ya M.Azhari ..!

The last msg i received from hym @ 2.45pm(22 june) ..

* Bie, T.care tau .. I da reach .. Love & miss you Nur Syahirah frm e bottom of ma heart .. I c ya soon .. Dun cry or sad kae bie .. Tiz wouLd be ma last msg .. Keep ur promise kae cyg .. Md Azhari Love u Nur Syahirah .. *hugs* mmuackss ..!

I totaLLy broke down after read hys last msg .. I hide myseLf inside the toiLet & cry like HeLL ..! There's nothing that i can do .. But he did the right thing .. TiLL when he wanna run & escaped ..

Dear, i wiLL update ya at ma bLog .. Whatever i do, went out, with who i wiLL update ya .. Love & Miss ya aLot ..!!!!!!!!!!!

* Im not going out today .. Juz sit ad home ..

* No More Working *

2009-06-22T08:22:00.000-07:00

No more working at Six Accessories .. I aLready quit ma job .. I've been working in this company for aLmost 1 yr+ .. And this time i aLready make up ma mind to quit .. Cos i can't take it anymore .. The good thing bout working in this company is you get pay every wk .. Every Mon you get pay .. And every wk i get to shop .. But the bad thing is this company got NO benefit .. And they pay FuLL-Tyme & Part-Tyme the same .. $5 per hr .. And worst for new comer they pay $4.50 per hr .. I've been working in this company for 1 yr+ but tat Stingy boss didn't increase ma pay .. And if you're sick or what you stiLL have to come if there's no1 to repLace you .. And there's 1 thing that im not Happy about ..! The ScheduLe .. This person is workin in tiz company too & she work same shop with mie .. She's been working there for quite long .. She do the scheduLe for aLL the staff .. She aLways do her scheduLe as she wish .. During pay day she wiLL work morning shift .. And she hardLy do cLosing ..! Not fair ..! And now i heard from my coLLeague that she aLways off on wkends .. Idiot ..! Hope 1 day she wiLL get her lessons ..
* Start work on 5th ApriL 08-2nd June 09*
SIX ACCESSORIES SUX ..!

2009-06-19T04:26:00.000-07:00

Dear,ma Love for you have never change .. I stiLL Love, Care, Concern, miss you like before .. OnLy that i didn't show you how much i reaLLy Love & Care for you .. I let time show you how much i reaLLy Love & miss you .. Im sorry if i hurt you .. If 1 day im gone for awhiLe i reaLLy hope you wait for mie faithfuLLy .. Take care of yourseLf .. Find a good job that good for you & future .. Stop enjoying & start to heLp Grandma & Grandpa .. And learn to save $ for your future .. Hope you won't do fooLish & Stupid thing that i don't like .. Do things for your own good dear .. Like before i never erase your name from ma heart .. i know you wiLL feeL sad & hurt because i know how its feeL .. Remember don't be sad because i'LL be more sad & hurt .. Nur Syahirah, even when im not there physicaLLy but i aLways be there in your heart no matter what happen .. Love you from the bottom of ma heart & soLe .. I said this before .. Don't ever leave me dear .. Love you aLways .. You wiLL aLways be in my mind ..-abri
* Im soo touched by hys msg .. ReaLLy hope he meant wat he say .. :(

Unbreak Ma Heart

2009-06-19T04:09:00.000-07:00

Don't leave me in all this pain

Don't leave me out in the rain

Come back and bring back my smile

Come and take these tears away

I need your arms to hold me now

The night are so unkind

Bring back those nights when I held you beside me

Take back that sad word good-bye

Bring back the joy to my life

Don't leave me here with these tears

Come and kiss that pain away

I can't forget the day you leftTime is so unkind

And life is so cruel without you here beside me

Don't leave me in all this pain

Don't leave me out in the rain

Bring back the nights when I held you beside me

I just can't go on ..

2009-05-24T08:13:00.000-07:00

Again acting lyke STRANGERS ..
Its oOkie ..
I accept it ..

2009-05-24T08:10:00.000-07:00

Mish you lyte heLL ..
I muz move on .. Cheer up ..!

2009-05-24T07:16:00.000-07:00

Ma newest piQs .. Heart her ..! And not to forget ma mama kat tepi tuu .. Tk prasan she was ther ..-hehe Funny ler .. Bt i stiLL upLoad it ..

2009-05-23T11:29:00.000-07:00

Gfs ..! Cheer mie up pLs ..!

2009-05-23T11:23:00.000-07:00

Live Lyfe To The FuLLest ..! :)

2009-05-23T11:12:00.000-07:00

Things happen again .. Keeping siLent again .. No msg from hym .. Nvr even taLk .. We're lyte STRANGERS ..! Tats fynd .. You wan it tiz wae .. Den oOkie .. I can't say anitin or pLeased you .. I take it as you ady made up ur mynd .. I accept it .. Even though it hurts mie .. MayB u're happiLy outside now spending tyme wit ur frends .. Ookie .. I won't bother ur Lyfe animore .. Since ma msg you didn't repLy .. Wish you happy in lyfe .. I guess just now was our last dae c each other .. T.Care .. Bye ..

2009-05-22T03:52:00.000-07:00

Muhd Azhari

2009-05-22T03:36:00.000-07:00

You nvr faiLed to kip mie accompanied .. You came to ma Lyfe .. You R ma strength tat keeps mie goin .. You R the onLi 1 tat im in Love wit .. 'Dun worry bie .. Anitin happen i wiLL wait for you .. Dun hv 2 worried bout mie' .. Lots of Love: Shasha :)

To Hym

2009-05-22T03:22:00.000-07:00

If you don't know mie by now, you wiLL nvr ever know mie ..
ALL the things tat we hv been thru .. You shouLd understand mie lyke i understand you .. Even though it's been so long, ma Love 4 you kips gOin strOng .. I remember the things tat we used to do .. I mish those tymes .. No matter wat i say or do, ther's just No wae Getting over you ..

For you Bie

2009-05-21T05:09:00.000-07:00

I've been Lookin too hard, waiting too long .. Sumtymes i dunnoe wat i wiLL fynd .. I onLy noe its a matter of Tyme .. Wen you Love sum1 its feeLs sOo right, sOo warm, and True .. I nid to noe if you feeL it too .. Tiz heart of mynd has been hurt b'4 .. Tiz tyme i wanna B sure isit worth 2 wait 4 sum1 new to make mie feeL aLive .. Dun lose ur wae .. HoLd to the truth in ur heart .. Im happie if u're Happie ..

LoVe PaRaDiSe

2009-05-21T04:51:00.000-07:00

There wiLL comes a baLm for sorrows, and heLp to master Life's important sums.. There's a strength tat comes to uss everytyme we suffer, and wiLL grow stronger everytyme we fyte..

If i had to Live without you,wat kind of Lyfe wouLd tat B.. I nid you im lyfe.. How do i breathe without you.. I nid you to hoLd.. You're ma Heart & SouL.. If you ever leave,you wouLd take away everytin good im ma Lyfe.. If you ever go, how do i survive..? I nid you in ma Lyfe..

MASELF

2009-05-21T04:33:00.000-07:00

'Nur Syahirah' a name tats ma Parents gif after ma birth ...

'Shasha' tats ma famiLy caLL and sum frends too ...

'Ira' mostLy ma frends caLL ...

Im 19 tiz yr ... Bt dosen't look lyke ma age ...-haa UsuaLLy ppL thought im 14 ..-wuhuu .. How i wish ma age stops ad 19 ... Stay young forever ... I dun wanna or wish 2 gets oLder ...-haa CurrentLy workin ad Six Accessories Company ... Goin 1 yr + im workin ad ther ...